urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts killface. killface. 2007-08-01T07:27:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:34251 2007-08-01T07:27:52Z 2007-08-01T07:27:52Z it is 3:26am and i have just walked along the entire beach of cape may new jersey.<br />i am completely wasted and don't really have any idea why i am writing this.<br />all i can say is that i miss certain things right now, and it really sucks that i don't have them.<br />however, this new thing, could possibly lead to something good.<br />i've got my fingers crossed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:31368 2006-10-26T06:56:20Z 2006-10-26T06:56:20Z one of these days, it'll all matter.<br />until then, these tears are all i have. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:23155 2006-05-07T18:43:29Z 2006-05-07T18:43:29Z mogwai i just cried all morning. fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:22623 2006-05-01T11:58:10Z 2006-05-01T11:58:10Z fight song so in the past 72 hours i have:<br />made new friends, made old friendships better, seen over 50 bands or so, seen boston for the first time, and saw the biggest band in the world's first show in north america. im pretty happy right now to say the least. now i just have to try to sleep... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:15398 2005-04-21T22:22:50Z 2005-04-21T22:22:50Z krys and i are ten months old today!<br />&lt;3 this weekend is going to be fun :] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:15239 2005-04-19T17:41:24Z 2005-04-20T00:52:02Z death before dishonor i've read some mixed things about this judging amy episode tonight.<br /><br />all i have to say is that i dont find it surprising that anyone who isn't edge, thinks its not that big of a deal. and to them i say, fuck you. don't give me your bullshit about us having tattoos and wearing X's (although no one really does that anymore) and being fucking proud. PROUD. god forbid anyone is fucking proud of who they are anymore. it has nothing to do with you think we're shoving it in your face, or if you think it means something or not. straight edge is all that some people have. its their way of life, its their only means of survival. sxe has saved so many people from their demons and from the things that held them back. its about being POSITIVE. its about being better than what is acceptable nowadays. so to all the people who think their obviously uneducated and biased opinon means more than the X's on my hands, or the convictions in my heart, then FUCK YOU. you are the reason I am edge. bc im not going to be like you.<br /><br />now in regards to CBS and Judging Amy, i am so sick and tired of all this controversey surrounding sxe, boston beatdown, and FSU. its so fucking annoying. the media takes such a biased opinion about these things and their ways of life, and this episode is a perfect fucking example. I am asking anyone and everyone who is sxe, to watch this episode tonight. see the bullshit that they are putting on the air. more uneducated bullshit about stuff that shouldnt even be on fucking television. email CBS, tell them they are fucking retarded, do something about it. stand up for what you believe in for once.<br /><br />p.s.- <a href="http://www.bostonbeatdown.com">http://www.bostonbeatdown.com</a><br />***read the first page, and then watch the dvd. DO NOT WATCH THE TRAILER! the trailer has interviews taken out of context of the dvd, and poorly portary the points made by the founder of the company on the first page of the website.*** urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:15041 2005-04-05T20:06:49Z 2005-04-05T20:06:49Z donnybrook so today i almost fought some dumb junior. the kid was shaking so bad. he tries to throw shit tomorrow, he's gonna have to answer to me and a big black dude. thats right bitch.<br /><br />this week of school is tough, less than 4 weeks left til community study. i will make it.<br /><br />krys got her tattoos on saturday, they came out really good and i am jealous. only 3 more months til i can get mine.<br /><br />i made my license appointment yesterday. april 30th i will finally be able to drive.<br /><br />very productive, but i miss my baby &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:14745 2005-04-01T19:50:43Z 2005-04-01T19:50:43Z terror happy birthday krysta! i love you so much &lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:14212 2005-03-08T22:50:43Z 2005-03-08T22:50:43Z so last night was bane/comeback kid/with honor/silent drive at the 1st unitarian church.<br />the first 3 bands were everything i could have hoped for. it was great to see silent drive again.<br />with honor had so much energy and they played every song i wanted to hear. including a gorilla biscuits cover!<br />comeback kid took it to another level, and played what seemed to be forever. kids were going nuts, and i stage dived and sang my heart out up front, seeing as i got most my dancing in for with honor and some of comeback kid.<br />if there was ever a hardcore band that has stood the test of time, and really been a driving force for so many years, it has been bane. it has been about a year and a half since they were in philly, and let me tell you, last night, it was all worth the wait. it was one of the single best sets i have ever been able to be apart of. so far, in music and shows, bane made my year last night. thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:13964 2005-03-04T20:44:17Z 2005-03-04T20:44:17Z leavenworth a few things:<br />krysta got into temple. my life just got a thousand times better.<br />i am ready for school to be over.<br />i am ready for an american nightmare reunion. any day now guys...<br /><br />that is all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:13662 2005-03-01T18:02:35Z 2005-03-01T18:02:35Z fight night snow is nutsssss.<br />no school today.<br />but i have to work, and that sucks.<br />hopefully it will be dead.<br /><br />im bored, so do this:<br /><br />[1] Who are you?<br />[2] Are we friends?<br />[3] When and how did we meet?<br />[4] How have I affected you?<br />[5] What do you think of me?<br />[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?<br />[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?<br />[8] Do you love me?<br />[9] Have I ever hurt you?<br />[10] Would you hug me?<br />[11] Would you kiss me?<br />[12] Would you adore me?<br />[13] Are we close?<br />[14] Emotionally, what stands out?<br />[15] Do you wish I was cooler?<br />[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?<br />[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />[18] Am I loveable?<br />[19] How long have you known me?<br />[20] Describe me in one word.<br />[21] What was your first impression?<br />[22] Do you still think that way about me now?<br />[23] What do you think my weakness is?<br />[24] Do you think I'll get married?<br />[25] What about me makes you happy?<br />[26] What about me makes you sad?<br />[27] What reminds you of me?<br />[28] What's something you would change about me?<br />[29] How well do you know me?<br />[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />[31] Do you think I would kill someone?<br />[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:13449 2005-02-22T03:57:01Z 2005-02-22T03:57:01Z IMPORTANT!!!!<br /><br />LEWIS BLACK IS AT THE STATE THEATER IN EASTON ON THURSDAY!<br />I NEED TO GO TO THIS!<br />WHO WANTS TO GO WITH ME!?!?!<br />I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:13292 2005-02-21T22:12:36Z 2005-02-21T22:13:35Z silent drive best weekend ever.<br />spent ever second with krys.<br />hung out with kinkade and kelly. that was fun.<br />also got to meet krys' friend sara.<br />this weekend hopefully krys and i are gonna go to nyc with her sister to see this:<br /><img src="http://us.news2.yimg.com/us.yimg.com/p/ap/20050221/capt.nygb10602211611.new_york_weather_nygb106.jpg"><br /><br /><br /><br />i will leave you with this:<br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v448/sxealex01/62116408_l.jpg"><br />its pretty cool being in love. 8 months today&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:12902 2005-02-16T04:13:38Z 2005-02-16T04:13:38Z i never update this enough.<br />valentine's day was amazing.<br />it was so nice to have everything work out for us again. &lt;3<br />school is dumb, it needs to be community study now.<br />i want to graduate.<br />i also want to go to school with krysta. i hope that can happen. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:12605 2005-02-06T04:16:42Z 2005-02-06T04:16:42Z armor for sleep i wanna live again... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:12307 2005-01-28T14:57:20Z 2005-01-28T16:23:28Z give up the ghost regardless of the fact that you're not funny at all, what is funny, is that you're still hung up on me after months of not talking to me. you're pathetic.<br /><br />i havent updated in forever, sorry about that. things are good right now.<br />i hang out with sipos, trevor and co. a lot. its all good. im happy i finally have friends here.<br /><br />me justin and trevor are hopefully gonan try and get this band off the ground. its gonna be a mix of first blood, american nightmare, and old bury your dead.<br /><br />7 months with krysta this past week, it was pretty amazing getting snowed in with her.<br />i get to see her today, we're going to her house and its going to be good.<br /><br />that is all. im boring anymore.<br /><br /><i><b>I won't go because I've been there before, and it took twenty years to pick my face up off the floor. I'm not sorry if things aren't the same but sleepless nights are hardly worth the cheapness of your game. and if you know what I mean then live for your fucking self, because life is too short to waste it on somebody else. there was a time, and I swear that I fucking cared... I got burned, and now I walk with this fist in the fucking air. I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY FUCKING SAY, they're not the ones who have to live with the pain. FUCK YOU! black heart breaking, broken bonds. I should have known all along. FUCK YOU! don't talk to me. I'm as deaf as I am blind. thanks for making me cheap, and thanks for the wasted fucking time.</b></i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:12045 2005-01-17T02:04:44Z 2005-01-17T02:04:44Z dead to fall i think im getting sick. i sure hope not.<br />i hope krys comes back tomorrow, i miss her already.<br />&lt;3<br />i have nothing to say. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:11583 2005-01-04T22:11:00Z 2005-01-04T22:11:00Z comeback kid went to most precious blood and rise against last night.<br />MPB was good.<br />i talked to colin. he was drinking beer. i told him MPB is only good now cause he's in it. he's a modest fellow.<br />rise against was amazing.<br />they played everchanging.<br />and swing life away. i called krysta so she could hear that song. it was so cheesy. but i love her.<br />life is good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:10916 2004-12-22T03:47:40Z 2004-12-22T03:47:40Z damien rice 6 months today, and i am the happiest guy in the world.<br />lets make the next 6 even better... &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:10620 2004-12-16T19:57:50Z 2004-12-16T20:27:05Z this seems to be the trend so here we go:<br /><br />10.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/14531.jpg"><b>Comeback Kid - Turn It Around (Re-Release w/ DVD).</b> This band really blew up this year, and honestly, even though the album was officially released in september of 2003, the album was re-released this summer with a bonus dvd, which sparked their hype, and their eventual signing to Victory Records. Positive, fast, catchy, and voilitle hardcore. if you havent, get this. (favorite track: step ahead)<br /><br />9.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/45500.jpg"><b>Casey Jones - The Few, The Proud, The Crucial.</b> Featuring Josh from evergreen terrace, this is a straight edge album for the records. With old school breakdowns, clear metal influence, and family guy samples, this album has something for everyone. now signed to eulogy recordings, this band WILL be the next straight edge band...even tho its kind of a joke. (favorite track: know this X)<br /><br />8.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/15697.jpg"><b>Converge - You Fail Me.</b> Not their best, but definetly amazing, You fail me shows a new side to Converge, and being able to see them live this year definetly made this album very important to me. This seems to pick up where Jane Doe left off, and even tho it took me a while to get used to it, I really enjoy this album. THE darkest record of the year. (favorite track(s): black cloud, last light, eagles become vultures)<br /><br />7.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/56884.jpg"><b>With Honor - Heart Means Everything</b> With Honor does hardcore right. This band has so much going for them right now, and they just keep on going. This record has it all: singalongs, breakdowns, two-steps, and the raw emotion of a real positive band. They have simply outdone themselves with this release. (favorite track(s): rethink, return, more than heores, with the wind, milwaukee)<br /><br />6.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/14440.gif"><b>The Acacia Strain - 3750.</b> I can sit here and try to describe this band to you. they are the heaviest hardcore band out at the moment, and this cd proves it. three guitarists, bury your dead's drummer, and one word..."sludge". (favorite track(s): carbomb, brown noise, 3750, smoke ya later, passing the pencil test, sun poison and skin cancer)<br /><br />5.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/99955.jpg"><b>Full Blown Chaos - Wake the Demons.</b> The must brutal album of 2004. Full Blown Chaos' debut release has breakdowns that will kill you, two steps you will get caught up in, and one of the sickest voices in hardcore. simply stunning. (favorite track(s): apocalypse, wake the demons)<br /><br />4.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/101981.jpg"><b>Bury Your Dead - Cover Your Tracks.</b> No one was expecting this...at all. yeah maybe you all expected this to be on my list, but no one expected when "you had me at hello" was released, that this would be the result. Some of the most passionate lyrics in hardcore right now, not to mention the amazing musicianship, Cover Your Tracks is simply amazing. The band has a real talent for writing dancey music. not to mention the tom cruise theme. (favorite track(s): top gun, vanilla sky, mission impossible, eyes wide shut, the color of money, risky business)<br /><br />3.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/101397.jpg"><b>Jimmy Eat World - Futures.</b>This, in my opinon, is the only good thing we have left in "popular music." It has not left my cd player since it came out. J.E.W. take it to the next level, with some of the catchiest, meaningful, heartfelt, and amazing songs I've ever heard. this album will have its own unique meaning to everyone, and i know for the rest of my life, no matter what muscial tastes change with me, this album will always be in my collection. (favorite track(s): futures, work, kill, the world you love, drugs for me, polaris, 23)<br /><br />2.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/14701.jpg"><b>Champion - Promises Kept.</b> Casey Jones will be the next straight edge band...this is THE straight edge band of right now. Promises Kept is the most volitaile, fast, emotional, and positive record of the year. Champion has really created an album for the record books with this one. This album will be the benchmark for posicore to come in the upcoming years. (favorite track(s): promises kept, looking back, decisions made, miles to go, the truth, the decline, the break)<br /><br />1.<img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/11958.jpg"><b>Misery Signals - Of Malice and the Magnum Heart.</b> Most of you probably saw this coming, but that just enforces my decision. I heard about this band on tour this year. the record came out while we were out on tour, and it blew us all away. This band is amazing, forming from the ashes of 7 angels 7 plagues, it has something that i like to call "fake-downs". you think they are going to go into a breakdown, but they dont. this band just simply keeps you guessing, and keeps you moving. not to mention of the best live shows right now. this record has something for everyone, and therefore deserves my pick for #1. (favorite track(s): a victim, a target, the year summer ended in june, in the summary of what i am, the stinging rain, murder, five years)<br /><br />Runners Up: Underoath - They're Only Chasing Safety, Unearth - The Oncoming Storm, Terror - One With the Underdogs, Anterrabae - Shakedown Tonight**thank you krysta&lt;3**, Dead to Fall - Villainy and Virtue, The Sleeping - Believe What We Tell You, Age of Ruin - The Tides of Tragedy, Love is Red - The Hardest Fight, mewithoutyou - Catch for us the foxes, silent drive - love is worth it, say anything - is a real boy, rise against - siren song of the counter culture, it dies today - the caitiff choir.<br /><br /><br />i hope you all enjoyed that, cause that took a long fucking time.<br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:10248 2004-12-13T04:21:01Z 2004-12-19T04:39:39Z first blood typical drama: i was thinking about this last night though<br />xdie tonight: ok<br />typical drama: new years is kind of like, a big night, if you will, for us.<br />xdie tonight: yeah<br />typical drama: and that, all of anything thats happened with us<br />typical drama: has been on dates with 1's in them<br />typical drama: first kiss, jan 1st. dating june 21st, actually going out, sept 11, first time oct 1st etc<br /><br /><br />if i ever didn't know that she was the "1", i know now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:9990 2004-12-11T06:17:19Z 2004-12-11T06:17:19Z terror <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v448/sxealex01/heart.bmp"><br /><br />i made that. &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:9831 2004-12-11T06:00:23Z 2004-12-11T16:49:17Z ok this made things better:<br /><br />typical drama: hey hye. the quote "my muscles feel warm" was good enough for me<br />xdie tonight: hahahaha<br />xdie tonight: come on<br />xdie tonight: her chuggin on a long neck.<br />xdie tonight: thats priceless.<br />typical drama: i dont see how thats any different from all that dick she sucked..<br />typical drama: i mean..<br />xdie tonight: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA<br />xdie tonight: oh my god<br />xdie tonight: krys<br />xdie tonight: i love you<br /><br />i love my girlfriend. &lt;3333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:9533 2004-12-11T05:01:40Z 2004-12-11T05:01:40Z dead and dreaming - a tribute to the counting crows was supposed to see pages and 9orders tonight. once again, i didnt get to go. however, i did see concussion and war torn life in quakertown. it was really good. i love tough guy.<br /><br />in another note, its been two weeks since krysta. and im going out of my mind. i really dont know what to do. i need to see her. if you wanna help me out, i have nothing to do saturday. we can take a road trip. i miss her so much. i wont be able to make it to xmas...<br /><br />...i feel myself slowly dissapearing too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fuck_hearts:9361 2004-12-05T04:53:48Z 2004-12-05T04:53:48Z fight night tonight i went to see the minor times and some other bands in quakertown. it was totally brutal. i missed my bros in age of ruin and nine orders tonight. i hope their show went will. sorry i couldnt make it.<br /><br />my dancing was a little sloppy tonight, and i felt like i was going to throw up from not dancing for a while, but it wasnt that bad. i got it back, and it felt good.<br /><br />speaking of good, i bought the new full blown chaos cd yesterday. even tho i had already heard it, its even more amazing on my stereo. house mosh to some serious tough guy metalcore. stillborn fest is going to rule.<br /><br />hopefully krys will get a car this week, so i can see her this coming weekend. i miss my love &lt;3<br /><br />this was boring, but i havent updated in a while. better updates to come.